Son gs of Ascent, 1.

So as most of you may know, I'm struggling with depression. Again.
I have a good and comfy life-but at the same time, I have a lot of voids I haven't been able to fill completely. I'll have to explain myself more in detail, but the feeling of inadecuacy and that of being useless -among others- remain constant.
The one good thing about this is that I'm cooking more and more every day, and discovering I have a talent for what I do in the kitchen. Blame unemployment.

Two songs that have gotten me thinking about what to do next. Hint: I still don't have a clue.

U2 - Ordinary Love

The sea wants to kiss the golden shore
The sunlight warms your skin
All the beauty that's been lost before wants to find us again

I can't fight you any more, it's you I'm fighting for
The sea throws rocks together but time leaves us polished stones

We can't fall any further if
We can't feel ordinary love
And we can not reach any higher,
If we can't deal with ordinary love

Birds fly high in the summer sky and rest on the breeze.
The same wind will take care of you and I.
We'll build our house in the trees.

Your heart is on my sleeve
Did you put it there with a magic marker?
For years I would believe that the world couldn't wash it away

'Cause we can't fall any further if
We can't feel ordinary love
And we can not reach any higher,
If we can't deal with ordinary love

Are we tough enough for ordinary love?

We can't fall any further if
We can't feel ordinary love
And we can not reach any higher,
If we can't deal with ordinary love

We can't fall any further, if
We can't feel ordinary love
And we can't reach any higher,
If we can't deal with ordinary love