Son gs of Ascent, 2.

I understand depression is a disease that takes away your time and your life from you. But it always doesn't have to be that way. It's your own time, and you're supposed to use it: nobody else will.
For Christy.

Aslan - Gotta Make It

You really fucked up this head of mine
What's in your heart is a waste of time
Lie in your bed for a week or two
You can bury your head but I've got news for you

This is your life, your time
You gotta make it
This is your life, your time
You gotta make it

What you've got you can never use
What you've lost you can never lose
All you need is just one more day
Just to open your mind and try to speak what you say

This is your life, your time
You gotta make it
This is your life, your time
You gotta make it

You tempted time and you tempted fate
You looked for love, all you found was hate
Immediate insanity leaves you in your doubt
It's just sucking you in and then spitting you out
You gotta make it
You gotta make it
You gotta make it
You gotta make it

You gotta make it, yeah
You gotta make it
You gotta make it
You gotta make it
And what if I was sacred
And what if I was pure
Would you bring me coffee
Sit me down
Make me feel secure

You really fucked up this head of mine
What's in your heart is a waste of time
You gotta cover your head
You gotta cover your head
Bury your head

Cover your head
Cover your head
Cover your head
Don't fuck with my head
Cover your head

Son gs of Ascent, 1.

So as most of you may know, I'm struggling with depression. Again.
I have a good and comfy life-but at the same time, I have a lot of voids I haven't been able to fill completely. I'll have to explain myself more in detail, but the feeling of inadecuacy and that of being useless -among others- remain constant.
The one good thing about this is that I'm cooking more and more every day, and discovering I have a talent for what I do in the kitchen. Blame unemployment.

Two songs that have gotten me thinking about what to do next. Hint: I still don't have a clue.

U2 - Ordinary Love

The sea wants to kiss the golden shore
The sunlight warms your skin
All the beauty that's been lost before wants to find us again

I can't fight you any more, it's you I'm fighting for
The sea throws rocks together but time leaves us polished stones

We can't fall any further if
We can't feel ordinary love
And we can not reach any higher,
If we can't deal with ordinary love

Birds fly high in the summer sky and rest on the breeze.
The same wind will take care of you and I.
We'll build our house in the trees.

Your heart is on my sleeve
Did you put it there with a magic marker?
For years I would believe that the world couldn't wash it away

'Cause we can't fall any further if
We can't feel ordinary love
And we can not reach any higher,
If we can't deal with ordinary love

Are we tough enough for ordinary love?

We can't fall any further if
We can't feel ordinary love
And we can not reach any higher,
If we can't deal with ordinary love

We can't fall any further, if
We can't feel ordinary love
And we can't reach any higher,
If we can't deal with ordinary love